Six years ago a great tragedy fell upon our nation...and I start off this blog by remembering all of the innocent people who died that day...may God be with you and all of your family and friends who mourn you today...We will never forget...
It is a dark, dreary, and rainy day, befitting for what most people are feeling like today. It's kind of a hard day to think about my own problems, but I cannot help it. My parents are divorcing (my dad and my stepmom) after 25 years of marriage...my parents who have always been my rocks, and now I see falling apart before my eyes...My stepmom was always a second mother to me, but now she is distant, I feel distant from her. For the past few months, I've felt for the first time since my mom died that I really don't have a mom anymore...at least here on Earth...
It's hard when my dad vents to me too - hard to hear the pain in his voice - hard to realize that the man you always viewed as strong can fall apart just as easily as anyone else. He's gone through so many changes in the past year and a half...left his job as Director, divorce, running a business...it just seems like the changes have been too much for him. I pray every night that he finds happiness in his life...I pray that he stops worrying and negative thinking...I pray he finds someone who can really bring out the happiness that I know is somewhere deep within...
I just feel like our family has fell apart. We rarely get together anymore...and this hurts me more than anything now that I have a daughter...of course I see my parents, and my siblings, but not all together at the same time. The last time we all had a dinner together? I can't remember.
I am just sad tonight, and I pray that God sends healing love and happiness to our family...and all the families who are hurting in the world...
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